Teenage Baby

Elaina's favorite toys are all baby- scaled versions of everything that teenagers and adults rely on. She loves the phone and the remote and obviously, alarm clocks. Stuffed animals ? Who cares ? Not Elaina. Baby toys ? Hmp ... she could take them or leave them, those are for babies !

Anything that can drain a pack of batteries within a week is tops on her list ! She somehow knows the difference between our functioning tv remote and the decoy remote which we have provided to her. Sometimes we'll even hold onto it as we watch tv, giving her the impression that the decoy is the real McCoy. Oh no ... she never falls for that old trick. She'll spy the hidden remote and contort her little self into any hiding spot to obtain the holy grail.

We have the same issues with the phone. Last weekend, she called our friend Ryan. He was so happy to hear that Elaina had personally dialed him. I was just thankful that she didn't re-dial a telemarketer or 9-1-1 !

Poor Elaina ... it's as if she doesn't have any toys.

"Minor" Misdemeanor

COMPLAINT

Defendant : Elaina Rose
Date of Birth : 7-2-2005

Complaintants : Mommy and Daddy

Charge : Inducing Panic , M1 Section Code: ORC 2917.31

To Wit : On June 7, 2006 at 2400 hours, it is alleged that Elaina Rose is suspect in Inducing Panic in the White House setting off 3 alarms in the residence. The first incident which occurred during the bedtime feeding at 2000 hours on June 6, 2006 in which Elaina had set her own alarm clock to go off, racing Frantic Mommy upstairs to investigate the noise. A second incident followed at 2350 hours in which Mommy and Daddy were nearly asleep in bed when Daddy's alarm clock proceeded to go off. Daddy and Mommy were both startled by the unexpected racket. At 2355 hours, Elaina's second alarm on her clock went off to the tune of "Baa Baa Black Sheep" set from her CD player. Once more, startled Daddy was made to silence this alarm as well.

DISPOSITION :
It is in the Defendant's best interest to be placed on supervised house arrest for 15 years and suspend all electronic devices from her personal use.

This court will award the Complaintants of Mommy and Daddy 6 months of uninterrupted, restful nights.

Complaintants Remarks : Frantic Mommy said, " That is the last time I let Elaina play on our nightstands as I attempt to sort laundry."

CASE CLOSED

Refreshments Anyone ?

Now serving ice cold water. Can I get you anything to drink ? I have added a special flavor to it all on my own !





As if eating table food and drinking juice from a sippy cup weren't enough, Elaina has moved onto drinking from her own little cup ! I didn't quite say that she is exceptionally good at drinking from her own little cup - but she is doing it ! Actually, she is quite good for a beginner. We had just come back from a walk with a friend of mine and since Elaina finished all of her juice at dinnertime, I offered her some water in her own cup. She has taken many a sip from my glass, so I figured maybe she was ready for her own. I could see the excitement in her face as I made the offer of her own beverage. She took some sips, swished her hand around for good measure and then after some more drinks - she dumped it on the floor. All done, Mom ! Oh yeah... and then she burped !

She's her daddy's girl for sure !

I Found It !

* Make mine a 6-pack !

Yes, Elaina, this is where we hide your yogurt. It's intentional to keep it from you in this giant white rectangle in the corner of our kitchen. This is also where we hold your sippy cup hostage and some of your teething toys for your fussy days. You cracked open our secret stash !

Elaina loves Danimals yogurt ! She enjoys a container of yogurt at the babysitter's house each afternoon for a mid-day snack. Strawberry, banana, orange --- she loves it all !

Food Affair

Mmm ... Baby-food-boot-camp is going well !

At dinnertime tonight, I planned the menu around Elaina's palate. Remember the blog entry a few months back, " Talkin' Turkey ?" Well, that same turkey was our dinner tonight. Eric had the turkey smoked and he was one tasty bird ! Elaina usually hates turkey flavored baby food, but she was all over the real deal. She feasted on turkey (which beared a strong resemblance to smoked ham) french cut green beans (thanks mom) and macaroni cheese spirals. It took some time before she caught onto the plan that we actually wanted her to eat this buffet we had before her, but when she did, it was hand over fist into her mouth. She was awesome ! She ate equal amounts of each food and even primed herself with some Stage 3 apples and bananas, courtesy of dad. I won't say that she wan't entertaining .... Oh, she was her own little food fest. She waved her hands in the air and dropped green beans in her hair, she smashed macaroni spirals into her shirt and she had some unrecognizable sticky-something smeared on her cheek.

The good thing about kids is that they clean up well. The bad thing about green beans left in the highchair is that they still are moist and cold to the touch 3 hours later when they need to be peeled from the seat cushion. Eeww.

Mom : Re-invented

I don't often prefer to show my mug shot on Elaina's story, but there is a reason this time. I've made a change and all of my long-distance readers will just have to wait to see what that change has been when I see you again.

Hmmm.... what could it be ?

Today, I conned Eric into coming to the mall with me and Elaina and spending a family day out of the house. It was a cool, rainy day so we hit the stores. We snacked on some soft pretzels in the food court and we witnessed a little girl go missing from the Stride-Rite store as her parents lost her for nearly 5 minutes. Fortunately, they found her in the middle of the mall carrying a bag of Robeez shoes in tow. This tells me that 1.) Stride Rite doesn't have very much security in regard to their merchandise and 2.) this little girl, maybe all of 3, got a spanking for her careless parents failing to keep her in sight. If you have ever been in a Stride Rite store, you know that they aren't that big and the display shelving isn't high and with 2 parents present, they should have adequate coverage over their one child. I really shouldn't bash them too bad - I was glad that their search ended quickly and successfully, and it was a reality-check for the dangers of Elaina becoming a walker soon.

Parents : be on guard - watch your kids ! That was a situation I would never wish upon any parent !

Keegan & the Monkey

Well ... knowing that Keegan is the name of our dog; you can pretty much tell who the "monkey" is in this photo.

Elaina is one determined little girl. She wanted to be on the sofa and so she got herself on the sofa. With a little help from her friend, of course. Afterall, why else would he be sitting right there other than to lend Elaina a paw.

Today, we neglected all responsibilities and had a play day. Eric spent most of the day riding his 4-wheeler with his friends and Elaina and I barely left the house and enjoyed a playdate together. Throughout the week we rarely get enough time just to sit around and be silly - so this was the day.

So what's new with Elaina ? I'll tell you... I am grateful that her teeth grinding was only temporary. She seems to have forgotten the grind as quick as she picked it up. She is, however, the Queen of Jibber-Jabber. Many times, she will just go off on a rant of babytalk in a very matter-of-fact tone. It cracks us up everytime. She will talk out the story in her book, she will converse with her binky and she may even have the solution for global warming. Who knows ? Her ramblings are enough to make you want to believe that she has deep thoughts going on inside her tiny, little girl-self. I prefer to believe that she is a genius in the making ! Just ask her - she'll be sure to tell you what's going on !

Her newest word is, "Uh-oh." Sometimes it comes out more like, "oh-oh" but we get the hint. She drops her book and "uh-oh." She falls on her tushie and, "uh-oh." I love to hear when she uses it in the proper context. She is funny ! Sometimes we get jibber-jabber-ramble-ramble followed with "uh-oh."

Recently, she has learned to point to Mommy, Daddy and Elaina's noses and mouths when prompted. She'll point to the ceiling fan in her bedroom and she has learned the rolling motion for pat-a-cake. She spent a couple minutes today "rollin-it" before she could "mark it with an 'E'" for the pat-a-cake song. Even when we weren't singing, her floppy, little arms were rollin' it.

This mom is going to roll out for now .... I am behind on my posting !

11 Months Old !!

Whew ... where does the time go ?

Only one more month before our little Sweetness celebrates her first birthday ! Eric and I are excited to finally be able to plan a first birthday party for our little girl ! By joining our family, Elaina has given us the best year of our lives and the most joy we have ever experienced.

Here's what Elaina has been doing in her 10th month :

* Elaina was baptized into the Catholic church
* Says "Mama !"
* So close to walking - has taken many consecutive steps
* Profficient in stair climbing
* Waves "Hi"(backward) and "Bye"
* 2 more teeth made an appearance
* first bruise
* Tasting more food
* I started "brushing" Elaina's teeth
* Starts to crawl faster when we go after her when she is into something she shouldn't be in

Like every other month, Elaina has been so much fun and we are enjoying every minute of her !

Baby Food Boot Camp

Elaina will be turning the big "01" next month and I am beginning to worry that we haven't been exposing her to enough table food lately. She has a whopping 7 teeth already that could be put to good use. (Other than grinding ! ) I bought her the 3rd stage of baby food which she clearly didn't like. Luckily, my friend, Beth, told me not to be concerned because none of her 3 girls cared for the 3rd foods either. So, in that respect, my mind is at ease yet, I realize that we need to begin pushing other foods that she may like and be able to handle.

At this point, she has a special fondness for pancakes, potato chips, cheese, crackers, fruit and veggie puffs and Arrowroot cookies. Oh yeah, she loves a little trickle of Pepsi from the end of my straw occasionally. ( I know, I know -- I never should have started that ! ) That's just the beginning. Each day, I am making the commitment to introduce something new for her to try and work those chompers for what they're meant for - not grinding !

All is going well so far. Only two gagging/ choking incidents to report and those took place nearly a month ago. Each time was on an Arrowroot cookie. Apparently, she loves them so much, she wants to consume it all at one time. Both events, she was able to correct herself with a little help and neither of us remain scarred from any choking trauma. Thank The Lord !

Of course, Elaina needs to feed herself - with her own fingers. Her eating habits leave much to be desired. The food goes in for the initial tasting / identification process. The food comes back out to see how much slobber can stick to the food. The food goes back in for one chew and then back out for a slippery, slide down her chin to see how much gunk can accumulate underneath her chin. All of this pretty much ensures that there is bound to be an additional meal in the bottom of her highchair in the end. The funny part is that I laughed when I found out my brother keeps a shopvac near Colin's highchair for this same reason. Hmmm ... Don't knock it till you try it ! There's some wisdom in that idea.

* Please don't judge me or my baby by the fancy hairstyle she is sporting - bathtime was next on the agenda. Note the puff going down the front of her shirt ! She usually is wearing a bib - this was just a snack !

Grin and Grrrind

Elaina has a new trick. If you can call it a trick - she has learned to grind her teeth. This mommy isn't entirely fond of this newfound baby noise. Her teeth are coming in beautifully, I don't want her to flatten them all out already. ( Okay - I realize that's a little over the top.) Each time I heard a "grind " tonight, I would squeeze her little cheeks together and she would stop. "Grind." One more time. The funniest part is that she had the biggest smile on her face as if she had a great new accomplishment for mommy and daddy to commend her on. Not so lucky this time, Baby !

Parenting: 101

Live and learn ! Being a parent means exactly that - only in fast forward !

I thought that Eric and I were both pretty proficient in our parenting skills. That is until last night. I began having my doubts.

At dinnertime, Eric filled Elaina's sippy cup nearly full with 1/2 juice and 1/2 water. She sat happily in her highchair and worked on her sippy cup and some fruit puffs as I was getting dinner ready. Upon a closer look, I realized that she had downed the entire cup of juice within only a 5 minute period. Unless she is part camel - that's pretty out of the ordinary.

"Downed it" was right ... right down the front of her dress and nearly puddled into her highchair seat ! Apparently, her sippy had a drippy. The rubbery nipple wasn't fitted on properly and she was covered in sweet smelling pear juice !

Impromptu bathtime : 6:15 pm !

As for my mommy skills, I allowed Elaina to stay up past her regular bedtime because we were happily playing a game of peek-a-boo and she had a catnap only a few hours earlier. She was crawling around her room, reading her books and every bit content. Within only minutes, she turned into a little yelling machine ! Just that fast - she was done playing and done being pleasant. Mommy lesson : Put the baby's jammies on first and then play. Little yelly-pants was not in the mood for a new diaper and she was certainly not in the mood to be stripped of her clothes for her pajamas.

These are lessons you don't dare forget !

All Weekend Long !

* You try to pose 4 little girls under the age of 5 when they all have their own little agenda ! This is the best we could do !

You may be able to tell by now when we have a busy weekend or even a busy week ... no Elaina posts ! My apologies !

Finally, with Memorial Day weekend giving us an additional day off from work, it felt like we had some time to rest ! Can we do this every weekend ? I enjoyed every bit of my time home with my family. The only thing I didn't find time to do was ... blog !

Here a recap of how we enjoyed our weekend :

Friday, our friends, Derek and Beth and their 3 sweet girls came to stay at our house. We had a cookout and just enjoyed everyone's company. Their girls were so excited to see their friend, "Belaina" that she is all they had talked about in the days leading up to their visit.

On Saturday morning, Beth and I had "business" to begin early in the morning. Our "business" was a neighborhood garage sale in her parents' allottment filled with wealthy families and great deals. This was the 11th annual sale and it is always packed with bargain hunters. Luckily, there were plenty of bargains to be found. Beth and I had a great time spending the day collecting our treasures. Back at home, the dad's had a father / daughter day. Two dad's and 4 little girls under the age of 5 ! This is a day that Eric hadn't ever experienced before. We figured that Beth and I have our "business" in the summer that we can devote a day here and there to shopping together and the guys get their turn during football season going to watch the Pittsburgh Steelers. Fair is fair. We all have fun in the end and that's really the most important thing of all.

Beth and I had a long day, but accomplished plenty. We were proud of ourselves and our great finds. The dad's survived and enjoyed some time at the local park with their girls. No one was about to cook on this night, so we ended up at our favorite local pizza place for a great dinner ! What a day !

Sunday meant saying goodbye to our guests. Derek and Beth had to leave to visit with her family for a cookout before heading back to their home. Their departure was followed with a family nap. We were all beat. It truly was Elaina's naptime - Eric and I just thought we would join her slumber. Aahh.... how often can you steal away the time to enjoy a nap with the 2 people you love the most ? Sign me up for everyday !

This night, we invited our neighbor, Sam, to join us for dinner. Sam is a friend of ours who lives next door. He is Eric's age and single and just a really nice guy. I have a sneaking suspicion that Elaina has a crush on him ! Here are two examples : yesterday, I was holding Elaina outside and upon spotting Sam, Elaina immeditely began waving at him like her little arm was made of rubber as she flapped it so hard to get his attention. She gave him a giant, sloppy smile and wasn't content until her acknowledged her. At dinnertime, we sat outside (Elaina in her walker) and she was practically flirting with Sam. She laughed and cooed and batted her eyes and gave him every bit of attention that her little 19 pound self could muster up. It really was very humorous seeing her react to someone in such a way. She is a nut !

And finally, we have today's events. It's Memorial Day and our town has a small parade down Main Street before heading into the cemetary for a memorial service to honor those who have (and are) served our country. Eric was involved in the parade riding in the fire truck with the fire department and Elaina and I caught up with him after the parade at the cemetary. It's an overwhelming feeling to see most of the town make time to honor our service men and women in this nearly 30 minute ceremony.

The rest of our day has been spent cleaning up the house, catching up on some projects and playing with StinkerBell. Elaina was in rare form today. She was a little bit of a (do I dare say ?) .... a brat ! She is cutting yet another tooth, this would be her fourth tooth on the bottom and she sometimes gets a little fussy. (Justified - of course ! ) But today, she was not only fussy- she was cranky and defiant and refusing to eat and didn't play well and just really not my usually- happy baby. I hate to say this, but bedtime couldn't come soon enough tonight. Goodnight all .

Stats !

Elaina had to go to the doctor today for yet another shot. It's really a carry-over from her 6 month visit - they didn't want to give her 5 shots at a time so advised us to come back for the one shot that could be delayed and they could check her out prior to her 12 month visit as well. So, Eric took Elaina to her appointment and got the following stats :
Elaina weighs 19 lbs. and 1.4 oz
Height is 27 3/4 ''
Head circ : 17 1/2 "

What a perfectly healthy girl ! Yeah Elaina !!!

Ba-donk !

This is the sound Elaina's head made when she fell down and hit her head against the wall ! Ooohhh ... the crying ! My poor baby had every reason to cry - within 5 minutes, she developed a visible bruise on her forehead. I nearly cried !

From the pictures above and the story of her "crash" you might be able to guess what kind of night we had. Elaina was not interested in eating any baby food for dinner and was just too tired to even make an attempt. I supplied her with some juice and fruit puffs while we ate our dinner and before long, this is what happened. She was out ! It's tough being a baby - especially when you bonked your head, you have a cold and mom wants to make you eat food !

Not long after, I fixed her up with some cold medicine, soft jammies, a warm bottle and plenty of hugs and cuddle time ! You know - even the days when she's miserable- she is every bit sweet and lovable !

* Notice in the second picture : Elaina's first bruise !

On your Feet !

Today when I came home, Eric and Elaina were playing outside in our driveway. She was half walking and half holding onto the brick retaining wall. She was amazing me ! (and Eric too ! ) I really think that she is so close to just taking off and becoming a full-fledged walker any day now. After all, she became a champion crawler in all of one week and pulling herself up onto everything along the way.

I have discovered that she does much better walking when it's on her terms. ( Oh - she is so much like me !! ) With too much encouragement, she becomes distracted and plops to the ground to crawl faster to her target. I think that her maximum step count (in a row) has reached 10 at this point. I love watching her face with her look of determination and concentration of walking and focussing on her mark at the same time. Any day now ....

It Snot easy being green !

This morning Elaina woke up looking a little bit green. Her nose specifically. Actually, more like the stuff seeping out of her nose ! I know that's gross, but when your nearly 11 months old - that's part of life and this mom has to write about it. I had previously thought that it was a symptom accompanying her teething and now, I'm leaning more toward it being that her immune system is weakened during the teething process and she develops actual cold symptoms. Maybe it's really one of the same. I just want her to feel better.

She has lost a little bit of her appetite, she's more sleepy than usual and she gets noticeably irritated easily. When your talking about an easy- going-mild-tempered baby acting anything out of the ordinary - you notice a difference. She is a growing girl though and her little body is going through so many changes each and every day. I swear that when I hold her in my arms and see our full image together in the mirror, I can't believe that big girl is really my little girl. I have enjoyed every stage that she is growing into. It's the most wonderful feeling to witness my daughter discover her world around her. Her first tastes, her first steps, the look of incredible achievement on her sweet face as she pushes the buttons on the phone or TV.

What can I say ? I am in love with my girl !! Snotty, stinky or silly - she is my world !

Party at my place !

Today, Elaina's friend, Maddie stopped in for a visit. The girls took turns going in and out of the door and pushing the doorbell to Elaina's house. What a beautiful day in the neighborhood !

Maddie is 6 months older than Elaina and they played so nicely together. Both girls were overdue for their naptime, but playtime had to come first. Elaina was the first to break into a case of the crankies. To her credit, she was nearly asleep when Maddie arrived and an hour past her naptime then ! However, my sweet girl rarely puts up a fuss for bedtime or for naps. (Lucky me !) With some warm cuddling and rocking, she melts like butter ! Goodnight !

FLASHBACK : 5-19-2005

One year ago today -

Our lives had been turned upside down. Our days were somber and we had very little happiness. Eric and I didn't know where to begin to put the pieces of our shattered lives back together. The only thing I had to look forward to this day was to spend the day at the spa - a Mother's Day gift given to me by my sweet Ava and her wonderful dad. Who, luckily, gave it to me two days early. A day at the spa would be a short term fix to ease some of my stress and temporarily, forget my pain.

Literally 5 minutes before I had to leave the house for the spa, my phone rang. It was the judge that I work for. Oohh, was my mind racing. (Just so you know, it's not common that a judge would be calling me at home.) I wasn't due back to work for almost 2 weeks and was scared as to what may have transpired in the time that I had been off.

Our conversation went something like this :

Judge : Laura, I hope this isn't too soon, but I had to call you. I was at a Christian lawyers luncheon today and I began talking with an attorney who is representing a birthmom wishing to place her baby up for adoption. From the families she has had to choose from, she has asked to see more options. She is requesting a couple who has been married for a number of years, who have college educations (and put an emphasis on education), religious, and stable. Laura, I couldn't get your face out of my face. I felt that he had to have been describing only you and Eric. If you are at all interested in adoption, I would recommend you get in touch with this attorney soon - the birthmom is due June 22 !

Laura : (trembling and sobbing) Absolutely !

I can't tell you how many people sent cards and notes and phone calls after Ava's death and everyone concluded by saying, " You're in our prayers." I often wondered, " If so many people are praying for us, when will the pain go away ? If so many people are praying for us - why does it hurt so bad ? When will we ever find happiness and will we have a baby of our own ?"

After this phone conversation, I knew that God was blowing the cover off his master plan for joy and happiness in our lives. There's no way that this could be a coincidence. I wouldn't believe that God would even let us get wind of this birthmom, if we weren't meant to connect. Not now. Not when we were most fragile, could we handle another major earthquake of hopeless despair.

My mind was racing. I still needed to make my appointment at the spa ! I got myself out the door and frantically called Eric on his cell. By this time, I was just bawling. He made the intial contact with the attorney over the phone ( I was a basket case) and he had asked that we submit a letter about ourselves, like an autobiography - and soon. My stress- free day at the spa was anything but that. Every emotion was pulsing through my body at least 100 miles per hour. Excited, nervous, scared, anxious, happy. Happy ? Did I say "happy ?" Finally, we may have had something to look forward to. I was tiptoeing on the border of happy and emotional meltdown.

The entire time that I was supposed to be enjoying my day of pampering, I prayed that I would have all of the right words as I would sit down this night and write the most compelling letter of my life. Where do you begin to compose a letter about yourself that will be enough to convince a complete stranger that you want her baby more than anything in the world - but not sound desperate and overbearing. I believe that my letter took me nearly 3 hours to complete. I did pour out my heart and soul to this woman in a manner that suggested that our paths have crossed for a reason. I stated that we have each sacrificed our own happiness for what is best for our babies - referring to the loss of Ava of course.

So, year- to- date, I guess that you can tell that God was on our side and that He did hear all of the prayers from our friends and family and our desperate pleas for a child. This day was the first glimmer of hope that has lead us to the most abundant joy that we will ever experience. Still, my heart swells with gratitude for the sweetest blessing we get to hold onto each and every day.

Thanks to everyone for all of your prayers on our behalf and we hope to get so lucky to be blessed with another wonderful miracle !

Hi New Tooth !

This title holds 2 meanings. I'll confess that I am not the best up-to-the-minute reporter. For the past week, Elaina has been working on pushing her second front tooth through. When this tooth finally makes it's grand appearance, she'll have a full toothy smile with 4 top teeth and 3 on the bottom. Just in time for her to eat her birthday cake in July !

Also, I neglected to report another cute trick that Elaina has learned. She has been waiving to herself - sorta like a little "Hi" to herself. The other day when Eric was mowing the lawn, she flirted with him with a continuous wave until he returned her greeting. Upon seeing his wave to her, she began waving back to herself - just like Daddy did. I do believe that was the most enjoyable time Eric has ever spent mowing the lawn. She had us both laughing !

" We'll have a gay old time !"

Now put that title to music. Sound familiar ? It's the theme song to the Flintstones cartoon of course !

At one of our sales over the weekend, I found a Flintstones book that plays the cartoon theme song with a slight push of a button. That very book has become Elaina's favorite toy of this whole evening. We had music before dinner. We had dinner music. We had even had clean-up-the-kitchen music. The child kept her finger pressed against the button ! Non-stop ! The book only left her sight 2 times. Can you believe that Eric gave it back to the baby when she dropped it ? Come on !!! Thank you Daddy !

I'm glad that she has so many other books to choose from now. Maybe I'll hide this one a little bit out of her reach for a day or two. It's a good thing that I enjoyed the Flintstones cartoon - we're all having a "gay old time ! "

Special Invitation

Our life has gone through so many unbelievable changes over the past couple of years. Last year, while spending all of our days in nights in the hospital with Ava, we developed a special friendship with many of the nurses who fell in love with our sweet girl. One of Ava's greatest admirers was Nurse Becky. Becky was made to be an intensive care nurse. She has an overwhelming love for her babies she cares for and makes a point to develop a relationship with the parents too. She made our time spent in the NICU more comforatable as she cared for our baby and made us feel like human beings again as we swapped stories and shared our lives.

Since our time there, we have kept in touch with each other and she invited Elaina and myself to her house for a baby party / luncheon today. She has already met Elaina and knows that Ava had a hand in sending us such a special angel to share our lives. Becky also invited two other moms and babies from the NICU and her grandson and his mother. She prepared a fabulous lunch for us and we spent the day talking and playing on the floor with our beautiful babies. It's rare that I am able to share stories with any parent who has been through similar circumstances with a child in the NICU for any length of time. It was great to hear how their beautiful girls have grown and developed and are doing so well.

Regardless of the circumstances and trials we have endured with our children and whatever their future hold, each one of us recognizes that you never get to take a day for granted and that these babies are our whole world. You just love and squeeze them and hold them tight and pray that they always have the happiness that each of them deserves.

* Baby Lilly and her mom left before we were able to include them in our picture.

Blessed Day !

Oh yeah ... and it's Mother's Day too.

Today, Elaina was baptized !

This is the day I had been looking forward to. Our little angel has been blessed into the Catholic religion with all of our family to join in our celebration. After the night we had last evening, I was fearful that this day wouldn't turn out exactly as I had planned. Most of the evening, Eric had complained that he wasn't feeling well. Just as we were going to bed, he said that he was freezing cold and was shivering. Eric hardly ever complains and he is never cold. Hmm... sound like the flu ? NO NO NO ! This couldn't be happening ! When Ava was baptized in the NICU, Eric and my mom both came down with the flu on the same day (3 hours away from each other) which left only me, my dad and one of our favorite nurses to witness her baptism. This day was going to be the best ever - we had family and friends joining us, we had a nice lunch planned and we had everyone at the 11:00 Mass who would rather not see Eric yack during the service.

Maybe a good night's sleep is all he needed. He woke up feeling fine and I woke up knowing that God had heard my prayers for sure ! During the introduction of the Mass, Fr. Ring announced that Elaina Rose was present this day to receive the gift of baptism into the Catholic church. Elaina must have been paying attention because, as she was standing on my lap, she began clapping her hands just after he spoke her name. Oh ... I melted ! I saw the admiring smiles of the people around us and I thought to myself, " Yeah, that's my girl ! "

Her baptism went very smoothly as the priest poured holy water atop her head and annointed her chest with oil. My brother and sister-in-law , Greg and Kate, have proudly claimed the role as her Godparents. Like so many, they recognize what a special baby we have been entrusted to care for and love. We all feel that Elaina has been a beautiful blessing for all of our family to enjoy. Just the way it was meant to be.

What made the day even better was that so many of our family and friends were able to join us for this celebration. Their presence was enough to satisfy me, yet they brought her the most beautiful gifts also. Since Elaina has grown to love books, she received many books and special keepsakes to commemorate this blessed event. We'll always treasure the memories of this beautiful day.

* My only regret of the entire day was that my poor child only had about a 20 minute nap all of the day until nearly 3:00 ! She was very social and couldn't miss a minute of her party. The only time she became fussy was when we tried to get some family and group pictures with our little Precious.

Soggy Shoppers

Yeah, I know it's springtime in the Northeast, but will it ever stop raining ? I believe this makes Day 7 of consecutive rainy days.

Less determined bargain shoppers and those who prefer to be sensible and dry would be content to stay in on a wet day like today. Not my family ! My mom joined me and and my mother-in-law and we hit some garage sales ! Our thought was that we would load up the deals as the rain would be plenty enough to deter others from infringing on our target sales. We were surprised to see how many others braved the 55 degree day in the drizzling rain to get some deals. The three of us had a great time bargaining for our treasures ! I have to admit that I was impressed that my mother-in-law conceded in our shopping addiction as she powered along and helped navigate to the next sale.

The best find of the day was for Elaina, of course. On one of our first sales, I found a Little Tykes play yard / house perfect for our girl. The only problem was the fact that it filled my mom's trunk immediately. Luckily, we weren't to far from home and made a pit stop after Round 1 of our sale shopping. Better yet, Elaina loves her new plastic neighborhood ! Eric cleaned it up and helped her to "move in." She must have crawled and walked in and out of the front door of her house at least 60 times - shutting the door behind her every last time ! How funny ! This provided nearly 20 minutes of uninterrupted fun for the new homeowner !

Later in the afternoon, we met Aunt Cindy for a late "Mother's- Day- lunch." Elaina stayed home with her dad on this particular girls' day out. (We missed you Elaina !) It wouldn't have been fair to her to drag her around in the cold, wet weather when she would surely have a better time playing with dad and grandpa at home.

Our evening was spent at Eric's brother and sister-in-laws house choosing a monument for Ava. I feel so bad that an entire year has gone by and we haven't yet memorialized her grave. It's not because I haven't wanted to do it, it's just that I have wanted it to be absolutely perfect that I didn't know where to begin. Since Tim and Terri own a monument business and Terri is every bit of an artist, we all sat around the kitchen table and shared ideas and sketched the perfect memorial for our perfect angel. I am pleased with the result and feel that we have done our best.

Mother's Day has seemed to hit hard for me over the past 3 years. Three years ago, I spent my first Mother's Day with Tim and Terri sobbing over having to choose Ella's monument. That was a horrible, emotional pain. Piercing pain. I vowed that the following year would be different. It was. That year we were still trying to get pregnant without any success. Still, I thought, "just wait until next year, that would be the best of all." The following year brought Ava into our lives, only to have her become an angel the day before Mother's Day.

This year leaves me with very bittersweet emotions. Again, I find it painfully ironic that we are faced with having to memorialize our daughter - one more time. Oh... and it doesn't get any easier. Not even after a year. The thing that is cause for the bigger celebration is that Elaina will be baptized tomorrow. That's plenty enough to overshadow my grief and make my heart happy.

Lost Agenda

What a busy week ! All in preparation for a busy weekend - our baby will be baptized on Sunday !

Knowing how this weekend will fly by and be jam-packed full of activity, I thought it would be a good idea to only work a half day and get things in order with a little less hustle and bustle. My first stop was to the mall for a return and to purchase the jacket that I didn't have time to get on my last trip during my lunch hour. Two stores and one hour later, I made my way out -one full hour behind schedule. To my demise, I spotted a sign that read, " Street Garage Sales." Oh, come on.... I can't pass that up ! I made a few stops (in the pouring rain) and picked up some cute clothes for my nephew, Colin. Not so lucky finding girl stuff or me- stuff. One more hour behind schedule. I finally get home with Elaina and a few other treasures in tow and remember how much packing I failed to do the night before. At this point, I foresee yet another hour that will disappear !

We finally got ourselves together to get on the road for the almost 3 hour drive to get to Eric's parents' house. As always, they were thrilled to see our smiling, little sweetheart and soak her with hugs. Our 3 year- old nephew, Evan, was there ready to see "the baby." He lavished her with attention and brought her toys so they could play together. They were so cute - you'd think that I would think to pull out my camera for a quick shot. Nope. (Sorry - no picture available.) It probably would have been a good idea for me to have had my camera focussed on Elaina taking 7 steps in a row too. Nope. (Sorry - no picture available.)

My whole day was somewhat out of sync. What can I say ?

Toss - the -Tot !

Eric and Elaina have a new game they play. It involves tossing Elaina onto our bed and waiting for her to slide down (feet first) to the floor only for Eric to pop her up again. She squeals and laughs so hard ! I could barely catch my breath from laughing so hard too ! She is a goof !
Holding onto the bed sheets, she inches her way to the edge of the bed and slides down to the floor awaiting another lift. Even after nearly 10 tosses, we were still amused and rolling in our laughter.
Ten months old is such a fun age ! I love to see how her personality and sense of humor is developing and she is able to communicate how much she loves ( or doesn't ) love certain things. With her slobbery, wet smile, it was clear that she loves the "Bed -Toss -Game !"

Being Ignored

Elaina and I were playing in her room tonight and while she was reading her books to herself, I grabbed the phone to give my girlfriend a quick phone call. As soon as my full attention wasn't centered around my beloved, she took 8 steps ! I was so much in awe that I nearly forgot who I was talking to and that I was in the middle of a conversation ! (Sorry Amie ! )

Isn't that always the way; when you want them to do something, they won't and when you don't want them to do something , they will. Plenty of times, Eric and I will sit on the floor with our arms stretched out to encourage our little stepper to walk to us and she falls to the floor. Stop paying attention to her for half of a minute and she takes 8 steps !

Now when I leave her in her crib to play while I take a shower, I wonder if she isn't carrying on full conversations with her toys and reading to her dolls ! Hmm ...

Stair Master

Do you suppose there is anything wrong with a 10 month- old learning how to climb the stairs ? A few weeks ago, Elaina made her way over to the steps and just began to climb. She got to the 6th step before looking back and realized that she was out of her element and got scared. Dad saved her.

Tonight she was crawling all over the house like a crazed monkey and when she got to the stairs, she just began to climb. I was already upstairs and Eric was bringing up the rear (literally) following her. Hearing the commotion and his encouragement to her, I looked down to find her only 4 steps from reaching the top. With an excited smirk on her sweet face - she was climbing over the threshold of the final step. Oh what a big girl !

On yet another trip upstairs, I decided to let her have another crack at doing the stairs herself. She did. With her fingers gripped tight into the thick pile of carpet, her little diaper-butt wiggled and wiggled and her legs moved like a skilled rock-climber. What can I say ? She's a natural.

Little Miss Independent Elaina.

Angel in Heaven

Today is an anniversary that I haven't been exactly looking forward to. A year ago today, our sweet Ava became an angel.

From the day she was born, she had already been an angel. There wouldn't be any other reason to be able to explain how she was able to endure the life that she had on this earth otherwise. More than likely, her condition was constant discomfort and pain for her. Multiple procedures and operations drained her. As her parents, Eric and I only elected to have the necessary steps taken for her in order for her to progress. We had no interest in only maintaining a poor situation and certainly nothing that would compromise her life. Only the best for our baby.

Even a year later, I couldn't even begin to explain the type of horrible roller coaster ride we went through in our days with her in the NICU. Absolute heartbreak. Some days, we had some encouraging news, but by the end of the day, we could always count on a test result or a back-to-reality doctor to shatter our hope into a million pieces. Not only was it a roller coaster of emotions, but a roller coaster testing our faith. Upon Ava's diagnosis as I was 6 months pregnant, I prayed that whatever happened, it would be for the best for my baby. Not me. My baby. If she was going to have special needs throughout her life, I prayed to God that she would at least have a good quality life. A handicap of any type would certainly never be anything that any parent would be content with for their own child - but if it meant that we had a child - so be it. She is the baby that God has made for us and this is the baby that we are going to love with all of our heart.

All but 2 days of Ava's life was spent in the NICU. Mostly at Akron Children's Hospital. There, she was surrounded by her mom and dad and plenty of nurses who fell in love with our sweet baby. Toward the end of her 3rd month, the doctors had exhausted all of their medical resources to aid in her prognosis. At this point, we both had to face the nerve-wracking reality that our lives were going to change in a way that we could never prepare for. I have never had any interest in being a nurse, yet it seemed as though I was getting a crash course in order to handle the specialized care for my own child. My mind was racing. What do I do when something goes wrong ? Will I be able to handle all of this ? How in the world would I ever be a person again ? How would Eric and I ever be a couple again ? Ava had received around the clock care at the hospital by a full staff of professionals - and now it was just Eric and me. Actually, only me - Eric would be going back to work. My only solace was that, if God was bringing me to it, God would bring me through it. It was all in his hands from the beginning.

I barely remember having Ava home. I'll spare the details that would just make my mind spin and tell you my favorite memory. I will never forget the feeling of having my sweet, precious baby cuddled up next to me in bed. At the hospital, we held her almost every minute that we were with her. There was never a time to lay back in peace and quiet and curl up with our baby to actually rest comforatably. In Ava's bedroom at home, we had moved a twin sized bed in next to her crib. We pretty much set up a fully functioning hospital room in her bedroom to accomodate the both of us. Spooning with my baby, my arm hugged around her little body and her next to my heart. That is how I want to remember my Ava.

Her time at home was only brief. We ended up back at the NICU in Akron. On a sunny, crisp, Saturday afternoon, our angel was fading. With my parents at our side and floods of tears and breaking hearts, our angel went to heaven. Our heartache only meant peace at last for our baby. No more pain. No more tests. No more staring wishfully at the monitors. Only peace. Just what we had prayed for her all along. She would never have the peace and quality of life that she deserved here on earth. She was in God's hands the whole time.

We've lost two our two girls. I would often think that if I were to hear about a couple who had lost their two daughters, I would cry even if I didn't know them. It turns out - the story is ours. I've always believed that no matter how bad your day is - there is always someone having a worse day than you. Today, we were on the top of the list - no one's life could have been more shattered than ours on this day. If you were to ask me one year ago if I would ever be happy again, the answer would be a firm "NO !" Absolutely, no. I couldn't help my feelings, but I never thought beyond my baby. I truly felt that nothing would ever make me smile again. I love Eric, but what did we have to be happy about ? Even with my family, whom I love, I doubted that I would ever be able to enjoy anything ever again. That was my true feeling down to my bones.

Like George Bailey in "It's A Wonderful Life, " I wished that I had never been born. I wondered how I could literally drop off the face of the earth. And, where had God been ? Why wasn't he listening to my prayers ? My hope and my faith was nearly non-existent.

In the days following, I begged Eric to just let us move. We went to Kauai, Hawaii on our honeymoon and loved it. Let's move there. I've been to Oklahoma and liked it. Let's move there. New York is a busy place, we wouldn't even have to talk to anyone. Let's move there. I wanted to be somewhere else that no one would know us and we wouldn't know anyone. I wouldn't have to be around anyone who knew our story and I thought it would be the only way to escape our reality. My reality is that my husband wasn't going for any of my ideas. Neither of us knew how or where to begin to pick up the pieces - but we couldn't run and hide.

It's amazing what a difference a year can make. It's amazing to see how and when God will reveal himself. In the end, God chose to give us a miracle !

Reflecting upon this past year, I have never known such happiness. The glow of my healthy baby's smile and the sparkle in my husband's eyes when he is with his daughter. Even for me, it's hard to hold back tears of happiness and joy when I think how blessed we are with our sweet angel. One that was custom made just for us. This has always been my every prayer and heart's desire. In one year's time, I am thinking how God has spoiled us with the most beautiful angel on earth with two special guardian angels covering her at all times. God has let us walk through the fire and not get burned. I know that I have alot to look forward to when I get to heaven. Until then, my angels, Ella and Ava are every bit in my heart. I pray each day that through Elaina they are able to feel the tenderness in each kiss, my warmth in every hug and feel my happiness in my laughter. With each smile that crosses my face and every tear that comes to my eyes, I am thanking God for taking care of all of us and blessing us with angels !

In and Out of Town.

This weekend, Eric is out of town doing a gun show in Raleigh, NC. In turn, Grandma and Grandpa H. are here to spend the weekend with two of their most favorite girls. (That would be Elaina and me, by the way.)

We spent the majority of the day shopping and loading up on lots of great stuff. (We love stuff ! ) We found plenty of nice things for Elaina and Grandma and Grandpa and even Eric. I had no luck at all in finding the one and only one thing I needed for me - a dress for Elaina's baptism. Isn't that just the way it goes ? Oh well, it's truly Elaina's day and she will be looking beautiful - but then again, when doesn't she ?

Now more about our girl ... My mom has often referred to Elaina as a "Love Sponge." She is exactly that. She just soaks up every bit of love and attention directed her way. In return, she generously shares her hugs and affection to her adoring family members. Today she finally said, "Mom !" Then, "Mama." Yeah ! She is too cute ! Happy Mother's Day to me - a week early !

After a busy, long day, Grandma snuggled down with Elaina to feed her bedtime bottle. In the meantime, I was on a cleaning rampage throughout Elaina' closet. I sorted and organized and categorized and labeled all of her too small and too big clothes. Whew ! This girl has alot of clothes ! I have to admit that it was sweet remembering how little she was and how it seems like it wasn't very long ago that she was wearing her 3-6 month wardrobe. Where has the time gone ? Now I know where the clothes have gone ! ( In plastic totes #1-3 ! )

**In case you were wondering, we don't refer to that as being "spoiled" - we prefer to say that she is "worthy !"
And that she is !

How Many ?

53. That's the number of unread e-mails received in our inbox in nearly a month without internet service ! To spare you many unsavory details of my heated conversations with the cable company ... let's just say that their work is finally complete. Remember in one of my previous posts how the cable company was to come (Tuesday night ) to fix our Road Runner connection ? Oh yeah ... no show ! Upon my phone call wondering where they were, they said that they didn't think we were home because no one answered the phone when they called. Maybe a message from them would have been more appropriate.

Hmmm... I promised no details, yet I'm still complaining. Enough. Upon my final call to them, the lady got the message that their service to us was obviously poor and she was able to pull some strings to have a repair tech at our home tonight. He was here for nearly an hour and a half ! This poor guy earned his money tonight - too bad the majority of people in the company hadn't been so dedicated.

In summary ... Glad to be back, check some previous posts for some newly posted pictures and feel free to e-mail us anytime now. We'll probably respond.

Ready to Roll !

The search is over. I have been searching high and low for a used 3 -wheeled jogging stroller for Elaina. Okay... it's just called a "jogging stroller," you don't really have to jog. Whew ! I got a hot tip that a jogging stroller had been brought into the baby resale shop only 10 minutes from my work. I went there immediately to investigate. For only $40 (compared to $130 retail ) - we had a new set of wheels ! It is like the Cadillac of baby strolling. What a smooth ride. No more bumps and bouncing and battling the uneven terrain of our village sidewalks. It's beautiful ! Elaina and I went on a test ride and I realized that this is definately our favorite mode of transportation. Now, I can work on getting in shape this summer by pushing Elaina along on evening walks with the girls.

Whle I was shopping, I met a very sweet, young mom and we ended up talking for some time. Time well spent ! I had planned on being home somewhat early today as we had an appointment to meet with our priest to discuss Elaina's baptism. Our priest is fairly new to our parish and I have enjoyed his masses very much. He is very personable and friendly and just likes people. Our meeting was going well, Elaina was snug and content in her infant carrier and was entertaining herself by "reading" her books. And then... nmnmn. Nmnmmn. Grunt. Grunt. Our red-faced, beauty queen was filling her diaper. Alot. For about 3 minutes ! I am such a bad adult. I had to hold back my laughter as the priest was talking to us. I should be over that type of juvenile behavior - but it was pretty funny because she is soo obvious !
And, did I mention that it had been a warm, muggy evening and the air in the room was already stiffling ? Throw in a stenchy diaper to that equation and .... whew... get me outta there !

Can you hear me now ?

Tonight we went to dinner with Eric's teammates from his bowling league to a local family restaurant. The best part about tonight's dinner was that Elaina was able to join us and have her part entertaining the whole crowd. Our friends, whose son is a month younger than Elaina, was also part of the party. Tanner is his name and he has lots to say. Loudly.

After dinner, we all sat around the table and we pulled Elaina out of her seat to visit with everyone. Tanner's dad held him next to Elaina and he began to yell in her direction. Elaina harmonized with a synchronized yell and they challenged each other to see who could hold out their bellow the longest. Very soon, pretty much everyone at the table realized that they were having to talk above the holler of the babies and focused their attention on our two screech monkeys. As I glanced around to the other tables nearby, I discovered that we were getting smiles and stares from the other patrons as they pointed in our directions. I have to admit that this could be annoying to some, but because they were so cute, our fellow diners were able to laugh it off. We allowed them only about 5 minutes of competing until we attempted to quiet them. Tanner vied for Elaina's attention by continuing his holler (only louder) and Elaina turned her head to another friendly face of our friend waiting to hold her.

Only 5 minutes into the drive home, both kids were knocked out. Yellin' takes a lot out of those babies !

10 Months Old !

Didn't Elaina just turn 9 months old ? Whew ... it seems like I just posted her 9 month entry the other day ! A whole month later and our girl is growing so big and only getting sweeter and cuter by the day ! She is every bit lovable and kissable - it's true love !

So here is what Elaina has been up to as a 9 month old ....

* Beginning to take steps, 2-3 at a time !
* Has gotten 4 new teeth this month ! (bottom left, 2 eye teeth and top, front left)
* Points with her index finger and waves it around like her magic wand.
* Trying so hard to say KeeGee (our nickname for our dog, Keegan) - Elaina says "Keekke" ( much emphasis on the "k" sound )
* Much effort into saying bye- bye (mostly presses her lips and whispers to herself "bah-bah" very lightly - sometimes the lips just move without any sound. Too cute !
* Getting really good at saying Dada ; not as much luck with Mama
* Her feelings get hurt when she gets blocked into a specific play area, like the entire half of our living room isn't enough room for her to roam, she makes a wimper face and cries for about 2 minutes !
* Starting to get herself into trouble as she goes up to the TV and presses buttons to change the channel after being told "NO!" several times and getting smacked on the hand. This has become a nightly occurrence and the same scenario plays out every last time ! She's a STINKER !
* Cartoons have become a favorite as her attention span is growing longer and longer
* Bounces on her knees when she is enjoying her favorite music and cartoons. Likewise, she'll clap her hands to the entertainment.
* Becoming fast friends with Keegan; they have a mutual respect and both like to eat things off the floor !
* She has developed such a little personality and smiles and giggles all of the time. She loves to play and be "gotten" by mommy and daddy !

This has been a fun month and we're looking to all of the excitement that Elaina's 10 month will bring !

Feeling Disconnected

Here I am !

To my faithful readers, I apologize for depriving you a week's worth of little girl stories and smiles. It seems as though we have a weak internet connection from our cable lines that run to the house with road runner internet access. This has not only halted our internet access, but we aren't able to receive the higher cable channels on our TV upstairs - making it impossible for Elaina to watch her favorite cartoons in our bed. ( Do you just see how spoiled we have become ? ) We've had the cable company out two times already to fix this problem and we're up and running for a day and then back to nothing. Getting in touch with the cable company is a feat in and of itself. We can expect hold on the phone for at least 45 minutes with each and every call - regardless the time of day. Good way to discourage people from phoning in.

Looks like this entry will just be a jumbled mess of recaps from the past week. Oh, but what a week it has been ! Little Miss has been taking steps ! 2-3 at a time ! Out of the blue on Tuesday, she started standing more on her own. She would take on a standing position as I put her down from being held. And finally, she just started creeping to where she wanted to be. The two biggest bribe toys are her binky and the remote control. She also goes between mommy and daddy to soak in as many hugs and squeezes as she can handle ! I am beaming with pride over my little girl's newest milestone. She is growing up so fast !

Wednesday, we attended Eric's bowling banquet and Elaina stayed with our friends, Scott and Jessica, who are expecting their own baby this fall. Elaina is pure entertainment for them and they seem to love her company as well. When we arrived to pick up our little Peanut, she was cuddled up in her jammies along with Jessica, sleeping on the sofa. So cute ! I swear that cuddly little babies are like sleeping pills !

This past weekend was very enjoyable for all of us. We did some shopping on Saturday afternoon before meeting some friends out for dinner. Elaina was good throughout the whole day until dinnertime. While playing with her toys, she developed a case of the "dropsies." She tested her mom and dad as she would play with a toy and drop it to the floor. Over and over and over again. We are such suckers that we played her game for a little while until she was just forced to entertain herself with the toys that were hooked onto her infant carrier seat. It's too bad that she is just so irresistible - we'll do just about anything for that little stinker !

Sunday was a full day of catching up on housework and laundry and playing ! Our neighbors gathered in our backyard for an impromptu cookout for dinner. Elaina crawled all over the grass and the deck and even taught herself how to dismount onto the ground. As she would get to the edge of the deck, she would peer over the edge and wiggle her tushie around to go feet first to the ground. (Our deck is only about 12 inches from the ground.) You might be able to tell that Eric was the one who allowed her to figure this one out for herself. I can't say that I would be so trusting to believe that she wouldn't fall on her head ! She is one smart girl with great manueverability !

Finally, the cable company is scheduled to send yet another repairman out on Tuesday and we will hopefully be up and running shortly after. Until then, I've been stealing away time from work in attempt to get up to speed with Elaina's story. Believe it or not, I get less interruptions with a nearly 10-month old at home than I do at my desk in a 30 minute span !

Talkin' Turkey !

This morning Elaina woke up an hour earlier than usual, so rather than staying up with her, of course, I opted for some cuddle time in my bed with her. This morning, however, she wasn't particularly cuddly. She was snotty. She was stuffy. She was restless. Was she getting another cold already ?

We peeled ourselves out from bed and as I put her in her crib to take a shower, she sneezed and the green evidence that shot from her nose was enough to confirm that she was, in fact, getting another cold. Crap. Fast forward.... Because Eric was in the woods turkey hunting, I wasn't able to reach him and was thinking I would have to leave Elaina with the sitter just for a few hours until Eric got home. The one and only day that I actually had to be at work for a meeting in the morning ! Amazingly, he walked in the door just as I was getting ready to feed our girl. He had gotten a turkey ! A big one ! His day of hunting was over and he was able to stay home with Sickly for the morning and I would be with her in the afternoon. I have to say that I love having a job that I can be off whenever necessary - and the world will go on without me being at my desk !

It turns out that Elaina is getting yet another new tooth and it always makes it's presence known with cold symptoms. Poor girl. I know it could be worse though. Elaina's morning was spent with her dad as they went to "tag in" dad's 22 pound bird - that's bigger than Elaina ! I had second shift with her as Eric had to be at work in the afternoon, so we played and watched cartoons. Not nearly as exciting as taggin' a turkey ! How could I compete with that ?

Shoe Love

It seems as though Elaina is following in my footsteps. Literally. We both have a love of shoes !

Tonight I dug through her basket ‘o shoes to weed out the ones that she has outgrown. Hmm... let’s see, Elaina is 9 months old and has 10 pairs of shoes ! What a lucky girl ! As I pulled 4 pair out that no longer fit, she kidnaped them. She put her hands in them and "drove" herself around on the floor. Once she got across the room, she left those shoes there, hidden under her night stand, only to come back for more ! Okay, I get the hint - she wants to keep them.

At this point of the story, I can only bet that my mom is sitting in her chair laughing her head off, remembering my story and my "bluey shoes." Same scenario, my mom was throwing out my shoes which no longer fit me. This included my favorite pair of blue loafers with a mallard duck where a penny insert would be. I wore them with everything, all of the time - they were my favorite ! I wore them so much that a hole in the sole was growing so thin that my feet were getting wet when I walked near rain puddles. Apparently, my mom thought it was time for these to go. OH NO ! I thought otherwise. I remember putting them on my feet (of course to make it harder for her to confiscate them) and fighting her off. They were my "bluey shoes" and I was going to keep them.

My mom did eventually win this battle and we went shoe shopping to restore peace in the home. Did I happen to mention that I wasn’t quite Elaina’s age ? Oh yeah, I was more like 8 or 10. What can I say, I love my shoes ! I am so proud of my little girl ! And she’s only just begun !

As if she couldn't be any more funny... I tried to distract her from the whole shoe issue with some books while I finished what I had to do. Shortly after, she came back to inspect my work. She stood up and proceeded to pull every shoe from her basket, tasting each one before throwing it on the floor. You have to wonder what goes through this little girl's mind. It's as if she was showing her appreciation and love of her remaining shoes with a gentle lick. Those are keepers for sure !
Next time I sort shoes, I'll be more careful to have her out of the room while I do the dirty deed. I wouldn't want my daughter to suffer the same shoe - trauma as my mother put me through.

Backyard Wilderness

Have you ever had that kind of weekend where all of your plans fall to pieces ? Welcome to our life. Eric had plans to work a gun show in Syracuse and I had planned on spending the weekend visiting my family out of town. Nope - neither happened ! Eric's show wasn't offering much inventory to sell and therefore, he declined to go when it wouldn't really be worth his while. (Oh yeah, did I mention that he didn't have any business even leaving the house because he had a horrible cold ?) Thank goodness he was feeling more like himself by Saturday. As for my plans, my mom told me to not worry about coming unless I didn't mind taking a cold shower while I was there - they had a gas leak in and outside of their house which in turn, affected the hot water heater. What a mess ! So, we both stayed home. No plans. Just the 3 of us and some free time. Yeah !!

Saturday, Eric began yet another phase of our landscaping project. With 15 new shrubs and bushes, our backyard finally has some appeal. We're anxious to see how lush and full the plants get by the summertime. It looks as though it will be a growing contest between the new shrubs and our little bug.

You might be able to tell from the photo that hunting season is, again, upon us. Eric suited up in his camoflage along with Elaina before heading out to scout the woods. I had to peel Elaina from his arms to keep her home. He is determined to share his hobbies with her which include fishing, canoeing, camping, backpacking and of course, hunting. He says, "maybe when she turns 5 or so." Mom says maybe " no ! "

We did have yet another weekend of nice weather and with gas prices hovering near $3 a gallon, we took full advantage just staying home. Elaina and I took a walk to the park where we ran into some friends of ours. Angie and her soon-to-be 15 month old daughter, Abby arrived just minutes after we had begun to play. We pushed the girls on the swingset and had some good mommy talk. The girls swung for nearly an hour doing some talking of their own. Jibber-jabber back and forth followed by interested smiles and coos. What a lucky coincidence that they ended up at the park at the same as us.

By the end of the day, Elaina was so worn out yet her motor was still running. It took some long hugs and rocking to help her to unwind, but shortly, she was just a puddle of baby - out like a light ! The cuddling and hugs are always the best way to end a mom's day too !

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It turns out that this blog is a mother / daughter project, Elaina pitched in with tonight's entry.
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Are you kidding me ?

This has been one crazy week ! Honestly, I don't know where the time went. Eric and I have both been keeping busy right along with our busy girl. As I picked Elaina up at the babysitter's house this evening, I had the most interesting talk with Nancy (Elaina's sitter) about our angelic little sweetheart. Don't get me wrong, Nancy and her whole family love Elaina, but boy, did she have some stories to share. It was a great opportunity as we both had time to spare and Elaina is ever- changing. So here's some of the scoop I got on my girl.
Elaina will hold onto the sides of the pack'n'play to walk around the perimeter at Nancy's but will scream her little head off with any attempt to be placed inside for longer than a minute. Are you kidding me ? At home, she'll sit in hers to play and take naps. Elaina gets very jealous of the other infant girl, Delaney, that Nancy watches too. She cries and wants to be held at exactly the time that Delaney gets her bottle. In fact, Elaina was investigating one of the baby's bottles and crawled over and popped the baby on the head with it ! Are you kidding me ? (Nancy assured me that it was just an accident.) And finally, Elaina, who generally loves just about about everyone, gets very strange when Nancy's grown son, Andrew, holds her. She cries and makes a severe pout face. Nancy told me that it hurts Andrew's feelings because he likes Elaina so well. Andrew is awefully cute too - Elaina, what's going on ? Is my child the day care bully ? Are you kidding me ?

Getting Down With Dad

Tonight I blew off all responsibility and time I wanted to be with my daughter to get my hair done. I have been neglecting my coiffe for some time and then my stylist changed locations making it further for me to drive to see her. It's been long overdue and tonight was the night. The one and only intermission was to stop by JCPenney and pick up Elaina's long awaited pictures. Going in, I knew they would be offering me some bonus sheets of varying sizes and poses and had previously proclaimed to Eric that I would be strong and that we had already ordered plenty. They broke me down !!! Oh... the pictures were too cute ! They had done an 8x10 in an antiqued black and white (sepia) and they offered different sizes per sheet that aren't available when you place your order. Call me a sucker, but how could I just leave pictures of our little beauty at the store ? That will be $15.98. Thank You !

So, back to the new do. Aside from anything baby related, the feeling of having someone else tossle and do my hair is top notch. Apparently, my mom went overboard stroking my hair when I was younger and I have grown to love that feeling. It was nice to be on the receiving end of some pampering and I was like butter. After 2 hours of showing off baby pictures and a cut and highlights, I was on my way home to play with my own little girl's hair.

While I was away, Elaina and her dad had shared an evening of quality playtime together. Here are some examples of the things that Eric has been teaching Elaina... she can crawl to the 6th step on the stairs before she begins to get scared not knowing what to do next, she will crawl up Eric's legs as he is in a standing position and he will allow her to flip back down onto the floor, he has taught her how to fake-cough as she thinks that this is entirely funny and she has probably tasted her fair share of dust, dirt and dog hair as he allows her to crawl to the far stretches of the house that don't receive a good amount of attention when it comes to cleaning.

Tonight, at home, I discovered them upstairs playing in Elaina's room, interrupting Elaina reading a book to her dad. Eric reported that they had much fun together and mommy can go do mommy- things whenever she wants. Well, it seems as though the things that makes this mommy happiest is just what awaits her at home each night !

Happy Easter !

What a beautiful day from beginning to end today ! The sun was shining, the air was warm and both sets of grandparents joined us in celebrating Elaina's first Easter.

Funny how a 19 pound girl can be so full of charm ! It's true, when Elaina smiles, her whole face just sparkles and it's every bit contagious. She charmed the socks off of her grandparents with her flirty smiles and plenty of giggles and wiggles. It was the perfect day to wear her pink, velvet Easter dress with a bunny on the front. She was simply adorable from top to bottom.

We all enjoyed a great meal together on the china place settings given to me by my grandmother. Having my grandparents here would have been the only thing to have made this day any better. After dinner was the perfect opportunity to snap some great pictures of Elaina and her grandparents and Elaina with her 3 Easter baskets. She got really involved in checking out the goodies stashed in her baskets. She couldn't let go of the new packaged binkies and some new hair ties that made a fun clinking noise. G&G W. bought her a lavender polka dot bikini and a very sweet summer outfit with a matching bucket hat ! Too cute ! G&GH. bought Elaina a Longaberger Easter baskets to stash her treasures for years to come. ( Grandma also brought a bag of clothes she bought on ebay - her latest winter hobby ! ) Her practical parents - I mean the Easter bunny - filled her baskets with new teethers, binkies, shoes, barretts and some other little goodies. Even her babysitter got in on the spoiling, as she brought over a basket with a new summer outfit and some biter biscuits and Zwieback toast - yum !

We rounded out a great visit together by taking a walk to the cemetary to place some flowers with Elaina's sisters, Ella and Ava. It's heartbreaking each time but having the support of our families, provides extra strength and meaning. Happy Easter to each of our sweet girls !

Hopping down the bunny lane...

It's true ! Elaina, Grandma H. and I hopped on down the bunny lane today right onto the Easter Bunny's lap ! Oh - just Elaina that is ! The three of us headed out for a day of shopping with a visit to the Easter Bunny as a primary goal. Surprisingly, the line at the mall wasn't long at all and after some primping and a quick spit-shine from grandma on Elaina's stick-up-hair, she was quickly seated on the bunny's lap. Elaina didn't really mind the 8 foot bunny as I really didn't give her a chance to investigate the giant fur-covered human that I passed her to. She was really more concerned about the crazy woman shaking a 6 inch stuffed bunny in her face as she tried to bribe a smile from her. Honestly - with all of the money they rake in from the mugshots of the screaming, crying kids all day, you'd think they could afford some better smile-bribers. Elaina did just fine though and we were satisfied with our keepsake photo and a full day of shopping. Mission accomplished !

Treasured Chest

For the past several months, my dad has been working on hand-crafting a walnut toybox for his favorite granddaughter. Because the wood used was from an old walnut tree at my grandparents house, it will always hold sentimental value. This box has been crafted from cut wood that has been passed through four generation from my mom's side. Before my grandpa had passed, the tree had been cut down and given to my father as he is quite the skilled woodworker. So many years later, Elaina has an heirloom- quality toybox / hope chest that can remain a special keepsake for her. Talk about a "family tree !" Thanks to Grandpa H. for this one of a kind gift !

Waiting and Anticipating...

There are few things on this earth that are better than walking in the door and having the sweetest baby ever flash you a big smile and crawl to you as fast as she can for you to give her a big hug ! That's the best medicine to cure any stress or problem in your life that may have occurred in the hours leading up to her warm embrace ! I love coming home to my family ! (Eric gives good hugs too ! )

I was not the only one Elaina was looking forward to seeing come through the door tonight - Grandma & Grandpa H. were on their way to visit for the weekend. I put Keegan and Elaina on high-alert to stand guard at the door awaiting their arrival. Once they finally pulled up, Keegan couldn't get out the door fast enough - he knows who spoils him most ! Elaina and I greeted them in the driveway and she studied Grandma's face first, knowing that she recognized her voice from the phone and she seemed pretty nice. She went to her easily for a warm hug. Grandpa was waiting in the wings to give his granddaughter some smooches and hugs too. We spent the evening at home playing with our favorite girl and bragging about her daily antics.

What a day ! On Sunday we will play the waiting game again as we look forward to Grandma & Grandpa W. joining us on Easter Day !

Some Bunny Loves Me...

Actually, lots of "some-bunnies" love Elaina ! She has her very own fan club as she got Easter cards from her Grandma and Grandpa W., Great Aunt Jan and Uncle Stan and her cousin Colin ! Thanks for the thoughtful cards - what a sweet sentiment !

Funny Kind of Bath

I can promise you that this will not be my most enduring post I've ever written, but it's definately a story I want Elaina to read when she's a teenager.

Each month, I have only one commitment to the Canal Society for an evening meeting. Tonight was that night. So, 15 minutes before I had to leave the house, I picked Elaina up from her walker and placing her on my hip, I felt that her foot was wet. I assumed that she must have just spilled her juice somehow and I was going to have a sticky child to deal with when I got home. Upon further investigation, it wasn't exactly juice. I'm gonna just have to call it as I see it ... it was poo. We were both covered in slime. The entire back of her onesie, her capri pants, her sock and her shoe - coated. (Did I mention that it was a brand new outfit ? ) As I was still wearing my work clothes, she got the side of my shirt with a dribble on my pant leg. I was in such disbelief that I actually started to laugh ! What an unbelievable mess ! At this point, I didn't even know where to start. I carried her upstairs horizontally, face down, with her explosion toward the ceiling. I popped her into the bathtub - clothes, shoes, diaper and all. She looked every bit confused as to why, for this bath, she would get to wear her clothes. As I had grabbed the phone on our way up, I quickly dialed my friend to let her know that it would a miracle if I actually made it to the meeting. Next, I started to peel off her layers and then mine and began to search for a bio-hazard bag. Now what ? Elaina pulls her toy basket into the murky water and before I can catch them - every one of them is now contaminated. After changing the bath water 3 times, we finally had a clean and fresh child. Eric finished putting her jammies on her and I went back for clean-up duty : Round 2. I scrubbed out the mess from our clothes and proceeded to bleach out her bath toys and then the tub. Afterall, the grandparents would be using her bathtub this weekend and now it's especially clean for company !

I managed to get to my meeting 30 minutes later with a just a hint of Clorox still lingering on my hands. So, even as the evening started out STINKY, I enjoyed the challenge of a messy diaper just like every other parent, because, at least, I have a sweet child to fill it !!

Fun in Disguise

After a short absence, I'm finally getting back on track with some stories and more updates of our Stinkerbell. Sunday was a day of full- blown germs in our house and a restless night for all. Eric and I shared the day at home with Elaina on Monday as I took care of my job duties in the morning in preparation for being off work in the afternoon and Tuesday. Tuesday rolled into Wednesday with another day off from work . And after 2 consecutive nights of sleeping with our little Snot-nosed-child, it was inevitable that I caught her cold. Verdict : I like staying home with my favorite girl ! In sickness and in health - she's an angel and she is so much fun. By Tuesday afternoon, we both needed some fresh air so we hitched up Keegan and loaded the baby in the stroller and went for a walk. Since we live across the street from the park, the playground would be our first stop. The air was warm with just a slight hint of a cool breeze and Elaina's hoodie was a must. I snapped her little pink jacket with her hood on her head and, Elaina on my lap, we sat down for her first ride on the swing set. She was quiet at first as we picked up speed and then I managed to peek around to see a contented smile across her face. We then moved to a bucket swing for a solo ride. She wasn't sure how she got there without me attached, but as I held her hands and swung her more, she decided that swinging was for her ! I gradually was able to let go and push her faster as she clapped her hands and smiled with delight ! That's my big girl - I was so proud ! She enjoyed watching Keegan down below as he munched (and puked) on a grassy buffet. I promised her that we would come back often and invite dad and her grandparents along this weekend to share in the fun.

By Tuesday evening, I was on the fence about taking Elaina to the babysitter's house for the next day. She seemed to be feeling better and was able to eat and sleep better too. As I called to speak with Nancy (Elaina's sitter) I ended up speaking with her husband who reminded me that Nancy's dad had just ad open-heart surgery that day. That was a deal breaker - if Elaina was any bit contagious , I wouldn't allow her around Nancy so as to avoid passing anything to her father. Really, I didn't need much more convincing to have another day at home with my girl !

On Wednesday, I learned that Elaina's favorite cartoons are on the "Noggin" network with "Maisy" being the best of all. We played, read books and she bounced on her knees as we listened to her favorite CD's. She tasted and gagged herself on her first Arrowroot cookie and frightened her mom. Eric was able to peek inside her gaping smile to count FOUR teeth coming in at the top ! All eye-teeth. She may look like a little vampire for a while ! And she enjoyed a bath every night this week to get the dried snot and day's dirt off of her ! Who wants to go back to work ? Not me !!

3 Hours of Happiness

That's about all Elaina was able to handle today. Previously, I had mentioned that she has 3 new teeth coming in and no cold. It seems as though I spoke to soon ! Our little Sweetness is miserable ! Overnight, she became consumed by a horrible cold. Just as she was getting back on track with sleeping through the night, this comes up. After about the 3rd crying jag last night, we cuddled her in bed with us and she was still suffering. She has got the worst congestion and runny nose that it's so hard for her to breathe, let alone, drink her bottle. We quickly learned to have a tissue, wipe or cloth on hand in the event of a sneeze. That actually offered her much needed relief as it allowed her drainage an exit. As gross as that is, it helped her to feel better for a little while. Most of the day we were faced with a tired, hungry child who is teething and can't breathe ! The infant Tylenol drops are flowing now right along with the teething tablets and Vick's baby rub and the vaporizer is on it's way. Her happy hours were few and far between today, mostly in the evening lasting only up until after her bath around 9:00. And then... the crying began. Flopping around, restless, yelling, real-tears-crying. As parents, our hearts are breaking with our inconsolable child. After what seemed to be an eternity, she finally wore herself out and fell asleep. Since Elaina rarely cries and is always cheerful - this was hard on all of us. Now, as I hear her crying a restless sob, I will conclude and pray that she can recover quickly and feel better soon ! I have to wonder what we have in store for us tonight.

Party Girls !

Today we joined Elaina's friend, Kelsey, as she celebrated her 1st birthday ! Kelsey is the daughter of one of my closest friends, Bevin. Here you will see Elaina giving Kelsey her first "birthday spanking !" What a fun first birthday for a little girl ! Kelsey loaded up on toys and has an entirely new spring and summer wardrobe of fabulous clothes. She enjoyed her cake and playing with her friend, Elaina. As there is 3 months between them, you'd never know when they took off on their very own crawling-chasing-contest ! I'm not sure if Kelsey was trying to lead Elaina to her toys or get away from her ! Elaina was so interested in her friend as she tried to touch her face and climb on her. Kelsey was incredibly patient - knowing that she was still the star of this show !!

After the party, we enjoyed some time with our little "star" and even learned how to (finally) post pictures. I've matched a picture with each entry, however the dates aren't exact - just some pictures I thought you may enjoy. Be sure to check the archives to see some more smiles from our girl !

Oh say can you see .....

...the 3 new teeth popping through Elaina's gums ! It's true - the child who has had only two little, bottom teeth for the past 5 months is getting at least 3 new ones - all at the same time ! That would explain her bouts with the "fussies" and her restless sleep. Unlike the last time she got teeth in, she has not been drooling like a leaky faucet and didn't get a cold this time either. She has become a little bit more clingy, which is okay by me as I love to soak her with hugs and kisses anyhow. And we haven't had to rely on the use of Tylenol or Baby Ora-gel to soothe her. My friend had introduced me to Highland's Teething Tablets which seem to relieve much of her discomfort - and they're all natural. So far, we've been able to see two of her "eye-teeth" up top and one on the bottom right side have begun to surface this time around. She has been pretty protective of her new chompers as she isn't a big fan of anyone digging around in her mouth to investigate. I can't say that I blame her, but it would be nice to get a clear view of what's going on in her little mouth.

7th Month in Review

Since I only started Elaina's Story during her 8th month, I wanted to also share some other notable events which took place as she was 7 months old.

* Said "Mmama !"
* consistant at holding bottle throughout feeding
* Grandma H. taught you Pat-A-Cake
* Became a champion crawler !
* Pulling self up onto everything
* Mom & Dad lowered crib and pack & play
* Got a cold (went to the doctor)
* More regular schedule of baby food at every other feed
* Uncle Ben created a beautiful video of Elaina !
* Attended 1st wedding: Trisha and Steve
* visited Grandma H. at her classroom open house
* First Superbowl with the Steelers becoming the 2005 Football Champions !

8th Month in Review

Here is a rundown of Elaina's "firsts" as she was 8 months old !

* Waved Bye-bye !
* First gun show
* Adapted well to new schedule
* Mimics the word "no"
* Her hair has grown past the tops of her ears, creating wispy's on each side
* Mom started Elaina's blog !

Un-Spoiled

Nope... I'm not suggesting that we are going to stop spoiling our little girl. It's the other way around - Elaina stopped spoiling us last night ! We have been blessed with a baby who has slept through the night since she was 5 weeks old. Last night was a different story. She had only napped for a combined total of an hour yesterday and bedtime was an hour later. Taking into account daylight savings time as we "sprung ahead" one hour, we thought there would be some adjustment time, but didn't count on 4 "get-ups" in the middle of the night ! Eric was up with her 3 times (he claims) before 3 a.m. and finally it was my turn and I knew the only thing to end her fussies once and for all was to just put her into bed with us. While I don't believe in the "family -bed" , we all needed some sleep. She managed to cuddle up as I stroked her arm and patted her gently. And then it was a peaceful rest for all of us for another 3 hours until that darn alarm had to go off ! Ugh.

So, I'm guessing that Elaina has slept away the day at the babysitter's house and we'll see what comes our way tonight ! As we have been rested in the past, we got a feel for what our lives could be like if Elaina didn't spoil us !

Nine Months Old !

Yesterday our precious baby turned 9 months old ! I have always wanted a 9 month old ! (Please realize that I say that for each month she turns.) She is such an incredible little girl and gets more fun every single day. Eric and I took Elaina to get her 9 month pictures taken. She played all morning prior to her appointment and during the car ride to the store, she was sound asleep. I had a slight suspicion that would be the case so we arrived to the appointment early so that she could wake up and get active. As our turn came, she was still a little lethargic and wondering why 3 grown-ups were acting so foolish as we tried to get some smiles out of our girl. She is rarely stingy on the smiles, but for a tired baby, they weren't coming with ease. We chose some springtime backdrops and even had some easter props. Elaina couldn't resist trying to taste one of the easter eggs - probably the same as the 80 other kids who had used the same props ! Her pictures did turn out sweet and cute, but her usual-silly-self wasn't fully expressed . Stay tuned for a picture preview link coming soon !